Can I just please go?

I seriously need to go for an escape. I want to run away from reality. Sometimes thinking about it makes my heart wrench painfully. And yet I can't run away from the fact that I will always be reminded of that.

Thinking of the future makes me feel like crying, makes me sad, makes me horrible. So I always try to forget about it, and be constantly reminded of the present.

But again, I can't run away from thinking about that situation.

Life is a suffering, and destiny is such an unfair reality.

If they say that we can't change destiny, then I suppose I know why life is a suffering.

But who knows I will change the saying one day.

What an irony, it's such a beautiful today and I'm feeling horrible now. It's just so horrible, I hate this kind of feeling.

Now I hope you understand why sometimes I don't call this a holiday.