Why do we live

A question pops into my head today. Well not really just today but a few times before. I've thought of some answer, I've been thinking about it again and again but well at times, I just can't come into a final conclusion, into that ultimate answer which I thought I have. Well, apparently not. But anyway, here it is.

Why do we live for? What do we live for?

If lets say here you are, given a chance to kill yourself. To commit suicide. Slit your wrist and let you bleed to death. Or a rope in front of you and you can just hang yourself, suffocating you to death. Maybe 100 pills of some drugs and you can just gulp it down with a jug of water. Sounds very scary isn't it. Well it's just a question, I'm asking IF you were given a chance to kill yourself. And you tell yourself no, I'm not going to die now. I'm not going to end my life now. Then ask yourself the question - Why?

If I'm in that place, my answer is simple.

I just feel that I still have a long way to go, and that my life is still moving. My story is still being written, my journey is still on going. If I were to die now, I have wasted my life, I will miss all the good things that may come for me, to me, just that I have not realised it. And of course, I have not seen them. Secondly, I'm grateful that I'm given a life, that I still have a life to live for. While others are dying because of a disease, dying in a war, dying because they -choose not to, but cause of another circumstance- why then, should I stop my life if I'm still given the chance to live a life?

We only have one life, so live it to the fullest. I believe I guess it's just part of the human conscience that we, keep on living. That everyday we just live normally, that we don't suddenly have the thought of ending our life tomorrow or something like that. It's just within us that we continue with what we're doing - to live a life and to simply carry on with the flow of time.

Then you ask, and I ask too, why would people commit suicide?

I guess people commit suicide because well, they're lost in life. People usually (or they do) commit suicide due to some huge problems they're facing. Economical problems, like how they don't have enough money to support their family. Psychological problems, like stress at work, or love problems (this is quite... Absurd actually, in my opinion) or being bullied (this needs to stop). With all these huge scale problems, they feel they have lost their directions in life. Especially when the pressure builds up so much.

When people are faced with problems, they tend to feel the only way out is an "instant end" to everything, that is to die. No more pain, no more stress, no more suffering. At times I do feel the same way too. Like I wish I can "end" my life for a while, and well we only have one life. There's no such thing as not living for a while. But these people, they're so psychologically, emotionally, physically stressed, that their conditions basically "blind" them from the hopes and solutions they have in life.

Remember how much we tend to act irrationally when we're angry or sad - that's because we are so angry and sad that we just feel everything is wrong. People say don't make promises when you're happy - cause when we're happy we tend to forget the negative side that the situation may have. Nothing is perfect in this world, we're happy, doesn't mean we can be happy forever. But also remember, when we're sad, doesn't mean we'll be sad forever! :)

So people who are really in dire situations, need guidance and support from other people. But because of their situations and conditions, sometimes they feel helpless that they feel they can handle the situations by themselves, when actually they can't and never will. I'm a cancer and yes, I gotta admit that I love to keep things to myself all the time. But when it's so unbearable I will just let it out to people. Real good friends, family, siblings, teachers and so on. That's cause I know they might give me the solutions

But people who are in dire suicidal conditions feel that there's no more solution to their problems because these problems are so heavy that they don't see the hope to solve it anymore. Which is pretty sad, because I think most of these people tend to just keep this to themselves. Which is why they ended up carrying on with the suicide :(

So people, next time you're facing lots of problems and you feel there's no way out, I just want to tell you that there is. In life nothing is impossible except for waking the dead and playing with time. And the next time you feel like as if your life is horrible and so on.

Remember that at least you still have a life to be lived for. When there are many others out there in the world, fighting and struggling to live.

And always be grateful, and live life to the fullest! :)