I don't know how to love

I've never, loved. I mean love a girl. Well I did, but it wasn't working out. They happened when we're all young and foolish, and the love I gave was true, while the love she gave wasn't. Long story, but to cut it short, we're just young and foolish. And I don't mind. She clarified it with me why, and she talked to me. And now we're best friends for like 6 years? So we're all good.

I don't know how to love.

I've got to be honest, yes, I like this girl now. We've been spending quite some time together doing things. And thanks to these time spent, we've talked and somehow, my feelings for her just grow. We went to an overseas trip together and that's another thing that makes my heart grown fonder. Not sure if it's the cancer thing, or me, but it's just, it's kind of hard for me to express my love.

I don't know how to love.

To put it frankly, I think I'm in the stage between like and love. These two words carry two different meaning. Love is a stronger, and a more emotionally involved word. I can like a person, but to say I love her, it's just a total different feel. Not sure about you, but I think we should all be going through this stage where we're unsure about love. We're all growing up. It's all part of us.

I don't know how to love.

And to put it frankly as well. I guess it's hard for me to express my love to someone (yes including to my parents, siblings and friends). And what made it worst is I'm not some romantic guy who can think of brilliant ideas to win a girl's heart. Love is such an amazing and at the same time, a confusing thing. And sometimes I do think, that she's someone like me too. You know.

I don't know how to love.

I might be a loser when it comes to love. But when I love I truly love. And it's really out of my league to wish for someone to feel hurt. I guess that's why I'm a loser in love. I don't dare to take the step, cause I'm afraid my girl will be hurt. And what made it worst is that I'm surrounded by such cases of people stopping their love life and then find another. It's appropriate to them. But it sounds scary to me.

As much as I don't know how to love.

I will and I love. And hope one day you'll love me too.

-No worries we're not on the verge of breaking up-