Saturday, March 19, 2011

Blumenthal

Mind the title, it's a title of the song Blumenthal by Ulrich Schnauss which I'm listening to now! I'm falling in love with his songs, they are... Just wonderfully "peaceful" and pleasant to the ears. It's like transporting you somewhere out there, a place where you've never been before hehe. Try listening to his songs! I love "As if you've never been away" and "Look at the sky".

The reason why I'm writing this now is that I feel... Bored. One of the reasons. Next I feel.. Empty. And I feel like writing! The sky, while I was beginning to write this, was really beautiful. I feel sort of inspired to write, and thus I write!

Okay now that the sky has turned black, I have lost my inspiration to write :/

I'll be writing here soon.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Emptiness

I just got back from my Hong Kong Trip on Tuesday. And now I'm suffering from this post-holiday trip syndrome. What's that? It's like this empty feeling you have, you're moodless to do anything, thoughtless, and just... I don't know. Feels like empty, that's the best way to describe it. I guess it's sort of a sign that I've had 4 days of fun, now... Back to reality I guess, so you feel rather "unhappy" about things, about going back to reality etc. Well well.

But Hong Kong was awesome, I've finally got out of Singapore/Malaysia/Indonesia for a holiday (minus my Sweden trip on 2009). It feels great to go to a foreign country which I've never visited before. And I promised myself that I'll return to Hong Kong once more for another holiday trip, but minus the tour. I'll just go there on my own.

Travelling, I have to say, is my favourite hobby. I wouldn't call it a hobby, for I don't travel somewher EVERY year. Well I do, like going back to my hometown, but I doubt that doesn't consider as travelling. More like a trip back home. But ultimately I LOVE travelling. And now that I have my DSLR, it makes travelling more fun. It's like combining two things at once - photography and travelling. So yep.

I guess one of the best parts of my travel to Hong Kong is to speak with the locals. I was speaking with two taxi drivers, they are really friendly and nice. And what I'm most proud of is to actually speak with them in Chinese! Yay haha. I think speaking with locals are not only a good way to learn more about the country, or more about the perspective of a country in the eyes of the locals.

That's why I told myself, when I travel, I want to do what the locals do, eat what the locals eat, and have fun. I think most tourist places have lost their original value both in tradition and value wise. Like how some restaurants would suit their flavour according to the tourist flavour, rather than local flavour. I ate in this HK cafe on my trip, and the soup tasted rather bland. Being located in a tourist district, I sort of suspect that the restaurant have decided to suit the flavour of the tourists, cause I know they may not be able to withstand the saltiness or the strong flavour of the food.

I think life's just too short to be kept within your comfort zone. Within your home, your country, your own place. Get out of the shell, go and explore this world and savour the freedom you have. Explore this world, and you'll find how much more beautiful life can be. That's why one of my to-do list before I die is to explore the world. I want to travel to as many places as I can before I die. I think it's just dull and empty to live a very monotonous life in your own home or country.

Oh well, freedom comes with a price I guess. But no matter what, I'll cling to this belief of mine, that one have to travel a lot. It's quite pricey, I know, but yeah I'll try my best. I will and I want to travel around the world one day.

One destination scratched from my list. Hundreds more to go.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Phew

Now comes this time of the year, when everyone is busy studying, mugging, revising, practising, whatever you call it. It's the exam period! Everyone is frantically studying so that they'll do awesomely for the exams. Everyone, including me.

But comes another issue of this moment of the year - stress.

Hell yeah I'm stressed. I guess my brain is too "saturated" I did three Math papers today, so now my mind is filled with numbers, and confusion cause I'm sort of irritated for not being able to do some of the questions. It feels like... I kept on asking myself, oh my I can't do this, what if this question comes out for my paper on Thursday!

Then comes another side of me who'll say - nah this question won't come out, it's too hard for everybody! Or this is a paper of more than 3 years ago, of course the standard is higher. So my chant for today is like "Lets hope this won't come out tomorrow" or yeah.

Well sometimes, in exams, it's not the studying or the paper itself that's difficult/hard/we hate. Sometimes I feel that it's this wish of wanting the exam to be over ASAP that sucks. And of course the results. But remember what you reap is what you sow. So if you don't give your best effort during your exam, then that's your... Yeah.

You see in exams, I just feel that we should exert as much effort as we can during our styudying period. That doesn't suck does it? Who doesn't want to get good results for exams? So give in your best shot! Then during the exam, make sure the effort you gave pays off. And not just dwell in regrets during exam by saying you could have done more.

So there's nothing bad about studying and doing the paper itself. Then when you're studying, comes a time when you just can't take it anymore and you tell yourself how much you wish this exam to be over. Well yes, here comes the crumpy and gritzy bits of exams. That feeling of wanting to end this exam once and for all!

Am I right? :)

And knowing that this is my final exam for my year one, of course, everyone is struggling to get good grades etc. That's the thing about polytechnic I guess. During those O Level days, we squeeze 2 years of study into one. This time round, we squeeze 6 MONTHS of study into one. And we have 4 modules, which are not as basic as those O Level subjects.

But hey! Don't give up yet, life is a struggle, and we're the ones fighting in it. My 2011 resolution is to basically be more positive about things. In fact I feel that's one of the hardest things to do in life. Being positive. Always looking on the brighter side of life, the greener side of the field. Many times we would just rant and grunt about something we hate.

When actually, behind that thing, lies a beautiful and meaningful moral one could take.

So yep! So much for ranting now but well yeah I'm hoping to get fabulous results for this final exam of my year one! Hope my friends do well too! I hope all of us can end our year one beautifully, and carry on to year two with a better and brighter mindset.

And remember, always be positive!

Gosh I just need a break :P

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

My Little Escape - Episode 4

The rain was falling rather heavily. My shirt, drenched in the merciless cold weather with the wind blowing from all different directions. I was feeling lost, feeling helpless. I've been walking aimlessly in a rather empty street of an area in Bali. It was night time, and the surrounding was dark and eery, with the sounds of the howling dogs, and the mysterious cheeping of the owls heard in the distance.

I have to admit - I was lost.

I took a motorcycle ride with an "ojeg" or also known as motorcycle "taxi". I met up with one whom I then go with to explore some parts of this area in Bali. I told him to drop me off at this place, which I thought I could go and find my way back. But well, I couldn't.

When I thought that all hopes are lost. I suddenly heard a man, shouting from the distance.

(All dialogues are in Indonesian)

"Hey! Young man! Come here"

As I turned back, I saw this middle-aged man, walking briskly towards me as he tried to open an umbrella. Seeing this, I heaved a sigh of relief and ran towards him as well. Somehow somewhat, the feeling of suspicion and threats were missing, even though whom I was meeting, whom I was running towards to was a total stranger to me.

"Why are you walking in the rain? It's 9 P.M, my goodness!"

"Do you know the way back to Denpasar? Are there taxis here? Or Ojegs?" I asked, hoping for a positive answer.

"You won't be able to find Ojegs here at these times, let alone taxis"

My heart sank, to hide my disappointment, I took off my eye contact with him and looked around.

"Look, my house is nearby. I saw you walking in the rain for the past 30 minutes. And I've decided to follow you, with this umbrella"

My eyes widened, my heart, speechless.

"Listen, trust me, you'll need a place to stay for the night. And there's no hotels nearby either. This is a village area, not for tourists!"

"If you don't mind, can I stay in for tonight then?" I asked, with joy arising from my heart.

The man grabbed my arm to signal that we have to start walking. I walked with him under the umbrella on that rainy night. But I came to a realisation. A weird and wonderful realisation. How did he know that I am an Indonesian? And how kind of him to actually follow me to see where I was going. I was thinking about this as we were walking towards his home.

We walked for about 700 metres when we arrived at this house. It was a wooden house, with walls made out of weaved bamboo screens. It was stilted as well. A typical, traditional village house. I was not shocked, in fact, I am expecting this. When we entered the house, it gave me this warm and homy feeling. Despite the fact that it's made out of wood, and not bricks.

We both sat on the floor of the living room. Drinking a hot cup of sweet tea he made. It was then I learnt his name, and his occupation. His name is Mr Ketut. Even though he insisted me just to call him Udjang. It's weird to call him by that name, for it's not a typical Balinese name. I also learnt that he's a caretaker of a paddy field. That's the reason to why he's alone in this house.

We were chatting for a while and I decided to take a bath. It was nice of Udjang to boil me a kettle of hot water to mix it with some water to make it warm. Just for me. He even gave me a singlet and a pair of pants. It was his, and he lent it to me for he knew that my shirts and all are drenched, and that I have no extra left.

After the comforting bath, we continued chatting through the night. Exchanging informations, exchanging stories, introducing who we are, until my fatigue could not take it anymore. I fell asleep on that cold night, as I wore that thin singlet. But in one way or another, the warmth Mr Ketut gave me, and his hospitality, kept me warm through the night.

The morning sunshine crept on my face. Its warmth, waking me up from that deep slumber. In front of me laid two hard boiled eggs and a cup of coffee. I knew Mr Ketut made these for me. I took my breakfast, and wondered where he was. As I opened the front door of my house.

I was looking at one of the most beautiful sights I've seen in my life. The blue sky, with the golden sun painting the eastern horizon with streaks of gold and orange. A hill overlooking this wide paddy field. The chirping birds, and the loud sounds of the rooster. It was like having all my senses in paradise. The smell, the sound, the sight, the taste and the touch.

I saw Mr Ketut on the field, a few metres away from the house with a 3 other men. I've decided to help him, even though he was refusing constantly. I took a hoe and started ploughing the field. He came to me and asked me to stop. He wanted to take the hoe off me to prevent me from working. and I stopped him:

"Let me repay your kindness last night, please!"

He looked at me and smile, and then taught me the right way to plough. And he instructed me of what to do as well. It was just so rewarding to work at this field, under the blue sky, surrounded with the wonderful sceneries. Time flew quickly, it was already early afternoon. I was ploughing some of the field when Mr Ketut called me from the distance.

He was standing on an unploughed plot along with 5 more farmers. Suddenly, one of them charged at me, pushing me down the muddy plot. He turned my body, so that I was facing the mud. And shouted in victory, like as if he had won a wrestling match. Everyone around him clapped, and cheered as they looked at me, which I then looked back, feeling lost.

Mr Ketut finally explained. We were playing a wrestling game. It's also known as gulat in Indonesian. Not only we'll be having fun, but we were also helping to plough that plot of field. The objective is easy - to just pin your opponent on the ground, as long as he stopped moving - a submission as some know it.

We were all having fun wrestling with each other, taking turns to just wrestle with one another. It was funny in a sense that everyone could just charge at you and tried to pin you down. Even though I only managed to pin 2 times, and got pinned myself for more than 10 times, it was a great fun I had with them. We washed our body then, and had a great lunch in the middle of the field. I looked at the sky. And tell myself - today was such, a beautiful day.

In the late afternoon, Mr Ketut borrowed a motorcycle from one of the farmers and decided to drive me to Denpansar. I told him my hotel's address, and he sent me there. Before we left, I wanted to return him his singlet and pants. But he took it, and placed it back on my hand.

"Let this be a memoir of your holiday here in Bali" He smiled, as he pushed his singlet and pants towards me.

I couldn't help myself but to cry and hug Mr Ketut. I was just touched by his kindness, hospitality and warmth. Not forgetting the other farmers as well. I bid farewell to him as he drove off the road.

And as the sun was setting on the western horizon of the beach. I made myself a promise. That I will one day go back to Bali and meet up with Mr Ketut once more. Wearing the singlet and pants he gave to me, to relive the best holiday in Bali I've ever had.

The End
PS: The characters, names of objects, events, descriptions of places are all FICTIONAL. They are not real and are all made up by me. Well I wish I can experience such an awesome holiday though. Who knows, right?

Monday, January 31, 2011

We Are

I'm currently listening to the recording of the song We Are! (band version) played by the SPSB. Yep, I am playing in the recording as well. I was a player in the concert Musical Delights XXXIV in which the song was recorded during. And it was my first time playing in Esplenade. And somehow, it feels good to listen to a song in which you're involved inside it. You're a player, a musician of that song. It feels wonderful.

As a musician, performing in Esplenade is, and has always been one of my biggest dreams. I have performed there, and to me, 23/1/2011 was one of the happiest days of my life. It was when my concert was held. Even though it was a tiring, hectic and sort of emotional day, it's a day which I will never forget. A day where my dream came true.

And of course, not forgetting those "things" which had happened earlier before the concert, way before. But anyway, I told myself that during the concert, I'm going to put that aside, somewhere far from my heart. I'm going to play like how a musician should play, and that I would really enjoy myself on that day.

And yes I did. I enjoyed myself, and I've put my best shot.

Even though many people don't recognise me in band. Who am I, what's my name, how do I look like, what instrument I'm playing, I'm just here to say: I am very honoured to play with you guys. With these talented and wonderful musicians whom share a same passion as mine. We all played together, well, and impressed the audience. Most importantly, we had fun, we had one of the best times of our lives :)

It's been a week since the concert. I'm sort of missing it. The moments I had as I performed on that grand stage of the Esplenade concert hall. The practices, which ended late, the times I had when I walked to the bus stop with my friend. And not to forget, the days I used to have counting down to the concert. I remember I've counted down from 2 months before, 1 month, and finally, 1 day.

Realising my dream, finding where my passion lays, is one of the happiest things in life. In my heart, in my mind, I just hope that this can continue. I really love performing as a musician, impressing the audiences, playing along with other musicians in a wonderful concert.

Next stop? I want to play a solo there. I want to conduct a band/symphony there. It's not far from my grasp, I know. It's there. I'll just have to wait, and work.

We are a great bunch of musicians.

But I do hope that the situation, gets better and better.

Yep. It will

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Cerf-volant (Kite) from Les Choristes

Cerf-volant
Volant au vent
Ne t'arrĂȘte pas
Vers la mer
Haut dans les airs
Un enfant te voit
Voyage insolent
Troubles enivrants
Amours innocentes
Suivent ta voie
Suivent ta voie
En volant

Cerf-volant
Volant au vent
Ne t'arrĂȘte pas
Vers la mer
Haut dans les airs
Un enfant te voit
Et dans la tourmente
Tes ailes triomphantes
N'oublie pas de revenir
Vers moi

Let me try translating this, with the help of Google translate and my little bit of French :)

Kite, flying in the wind.
Not stopping, flying to the ocean
Upwards, on the air, seen by a child.
Travelling insolently, an intoxicating journey
An innocent love, following your way
And fly

Kite, flying in the wind
Not stopping, flying towards the ocean
Upwards, on the air, seen by a child
As you're caught in the storm
But your wings, triumphantly spreading
Don't forget, to come back
To me :)

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Once upon a dream

Once upon a dream
I see myself in a place
I want to be, I'd love to be
Being free for eternity

Once upon a dream
I see joy in people's eyes
As they savour the freedom they have
Like those birds flying in the skies

Once upon a dream
I see a man that stood tall
Strong willed, with a big heart
Nothing could make him fall

Once upon a dream
I see myself on that green field
Running away from the reality
And savour the freedom for eternity