Mr Nice Guy

There are two kinds of people in life I guess. Out of the many. Mr Nice Guy, who is he? No he's not some hunky handsome guy whom everyone loves and would love to be with, would love to be their boyfriends (or girlfriends, Mr Nice Girl maybe). They're just people whom well... Love to be nice to people. They are not direct, they don't just shoot you when they're unhappy with you. They laugh, smile, and when people talk they listen even though they may not be interested with the topic.

Basically they're people who are nice. They don't shoot people directly. Usually just in a quiet manner. And perhaps to put it in a crude term, they still "give a damn" about people. At time they're the one at the loss. But it's their nature. People tend to take advantage of them. But I also realise they are the "unique" ones. Sometimes they have something on them that always surprises me.

Then comes Mr Straightforward I guess. Complete opposite. When they don't like you, they don't like you. enough said. When you feel they're irritated by someone they will show it. When they disagree they will say it in front of your face. When they don't like things they'll say it. So in a complete opposite, they "don't give a damn" about people. This is my life, that's yours. Deal with it and don't bring it into my life. Just... Yeah. Go away and don't "disturb" me.

Of course, both people have their pros and cons.

Mr Nice Guy - Friendly, easy going, cheerful, easy to clique with people. Cons? Well they're deemed "weak" for not having something to stand upon to. Sometimes people label them as "fakes". Oh you're just pretending to be nice to other people. Or you're not showing your true self in front of others. Some may say they are just "keeping their image".

My Straightforward - strong, determined, know where they stand, quick-minded, "not fake". Cons? They have to bear the fact that people may not like them for their attitude and behaviour. Or for their straightforwardness. People may think their cold and unfriendly. And so on and so forth.

And the funny thing is when people call you Mr Nice Guy, you try to say not really. When people say you're straightforward, you'll either agree or just say "not really" as well.

I'm considered as Mr Nice Guy I suppose. But when I don't like things, I will say I don't like things. And no I'm not a hypocrite. I'm not someone who act nice in front of people I don't like, trying to tell them I'm friendly to them when actually, nope. I will, as much as possible, try not to hurt people. That's one thing for sure. I'm not someone who's straightforward and tell people hey I don't like you, or I don't like this and that. I don't like conflict, so I'll try my best to put it in a as diplomatic form as possible. I just don't want to hurt people.

But when I get mad, I get mad.

It's good to be straightforward sometimes. To tell people, to have the courage to say no, to refuse and to tell your own opinion even though people may not agree with it. It's a sign you have your own view. And you have the courage to stand up for your own.

But to forsake and to give in to other's feeling? I'm afraid that's not my case.

I think it's important to strike a balance between being those two mentioned above. To both be Mr Nice Guy, and to be Mr Straightforward. I'm sure you can be both at different times. And not be one all the time. Too much of a good thing isn't good, just like having too much of a bad thing.

Sometimes I think to myself, I ask myself. Is it wrong to be someone cheerful, easy going, likes to talk, and just being friendly I suppose. And I ask myself too, is it wrong to be too-to yourself? To just don't really care about others. At times I feel I don't deserve this, then whenever I think of that, I'll tell myself how selfish I am as a person. Others have the right to act and to be who they want to be.

I'm confused by life. So lets just enjoy its bittersweet moments I suppose.

Only Yesterday

It's Sunday once again and yes I'm having the Sunday blues - to accept the fact that Monday is tomorrow and another week is facing me. Well of course I think everyone will have this in one part of their life, unless they so love their job or their weekend is horrible or... Many other reasons. It's normal I guess. I had a great weekend I suppose. I ran Sundown 10KM Marathon last night and it was awesome. My second marathon and yup it was great :)

Tomorrow will be the start of my 7th week of my attachment. Time flies to realise 6 weeks were already gone. But to know I have 22 more weeks feels like there's a long way to go. It feels like it was only yesterday that I began working. I just hope that time can fly away meaningfully and quickly and productively throughout the next 6.5 months. It feels like a long time but I know time will fly quickly and soon everything will come to an end. An end.

This week was the graduation week for my school, or in fact for polytechnics around Singapore. For the past three years, whenever I saw the graduation ceremony being held in school, I would tell myself the same thing. "I can't wait to graduate". This year marked the third year I'm saying this, and the last year I'm going to say this since it'll be our turn to graduate next year.

It's quite funny how we all would feel and share the same sentiment about graduation. Well I didn't feel that way when I was in secondary school - though I really wished that O Level could be over ASAP back when I was in secondary 4. I share the same sentiment now too. I want my attachment to end as quickly as possible, I want to be done with my FYP as quickly as possible (With good grades of course) but I don't want my polytechnic life to end so soon.

I miss being a student of course. Even now, when I'm "partially"  a student, I already miss it. Somehow I can't imagine what will happen when I grow up, after I graduate, when I start to work. I definitely will miss it even more. So that's the reason why I want to live my year 3 to the fullest. Cause when else will I be able to enjoy my poly life when now, I'm going through its final year?

Talking about graduation - yes sure we wish for time to pass by quickly for graduation.

In fact I wrote this both in my blog and diary:
I'm waiting for these days to turn into a memory. Something we can smile and laugh about, yet something rewarding that we can all look back upon to. And the only way to make that memory into something beautiful is to make these days, great days! Live the moment!

And I'm also waiting for the day where I will look back upon this post on my blog/diary and smile like an idiot. Remembering these days once again.

Well yup, I'm still waiting.

But well we humans are very funny people. At times we wish for time to fly more quickly. I want to be done with my attachment, to finish my FYP and to graduate. Then comes the day when I realise how much quickly time has passed me by and then I wish that time could have flown slower. I wish I can do this, do that and so on.

But who are we to wish to control time? All we can do is to just let time flow. And to always remember live the moment and live it without regret. So at the end of the day, when we feel that time is flying too quickly, we know we've lived those moments well, lived those moments without regrets and that we're glad that those days were over meaningfully.

It's pretty difficult to really live your life well. Sometimes here and there bumps would occur in your life and that these things make us feel that living the moment pretty difficult. The future frightens up sometimes, our doubts and negative thoughts haunt us. Whatever may happen, let life flow on its own. Whatever happened, happened. Whatever will happen, will happen. Simple.

Alright I shall end my post here. Here's to an awesome week 7 and for the rest of my attachment! Live the moment!