I have never really openly write about this anywhere but well I feel like it so here I am.
Growing up has been an interesting journey for me. With the fact that I'm turning 21 soon, there's one question that I still have in my mind. A question I ask myself yet I don't dare to ask anyone else. Like many others in this world, it's a rather sensitive issue that's pretty hard to accept by. But also something that holds my own identity.
Yes I'm talking about my sexuality.
I guess since young I know I'm in some way different. Honestly I've only come to terms with myself just recently about a few years ago. Back in secondary school I am still denying myself? And don't talk about primary school (although there are a few incidences). But yup just a couple of years back, that's when I begin to tell myself, to comfort myself.
It's always a question that I have that why or how am I attracted to the someone who's of the same gender as me. Back in secondary school it was just a matter of "liking" like I mean just liking. But I guess as I grow older I begin to imagine myself having contacts with some people. Physical contacts, or even a relationship.
It's pretty funny how when I was young I always deem this thing as taboo but not knowing that as I grow up, I am one member of this "taboo" I once talked about.
And the future seems really bleak with me now that I'm in a country where homosexuality is still a taboo. And also, a family who also thinks this is taboo.
I guess like I once said
We all have secrets that make us who we are.
