People

Right, hello there again. Can't believe that my life in polytechnic has officially come to an end! No more assignments, no more exams, no more projects. I'm... Free! Well not really cause I'll be rather busy with the going back. For I'm returning home after this. So I'm tidying up my place and so on so it's gonna be quite a busy one. Nevertheless, I can't believe I'm done with poly. Three years seems to go by pretty quickly. Feels like it was two (instead of three) that I entered in year one!

Though I must say, the three years went a tad slower as compared to the 4 years of secondary school.

Although I'm a science student, the three years in poly have also taught me something else - people. They have taught me more about people. Human interaction, behavior and thoughts. And it's something I'm glad to have "picked up" along the way, accidentally or co-incidentally. Well I suppose we can't escape this. For in poly we made many interactions with many people. For projects, studies, co-curriculum activities, outings and many more. We made many friends too. Unless you're those handful that decide to either be alone or have your own cliques, for the entire three years.

Nevertheless... Let's not talk about that but people. Well I have to say that the three years have taught me different things about people. Why do people behave in this way, why do people do this, and not do that. Why do people talk like that, why do people act like that. The different types of friends I have in poly and also the different types of people I dislike. Everything that happened in the past three years seems to be one valuable lesson for me. And I will treasure it.

I remember we have a module in year one and it's called "Our Nation Our World" or also known as ONOW. Basically it's a module that is about current affairs and character building thingy. But I remember clearly that for our first lesson, my lecturer decided to kick it off with one activity. So we have a set of questions to be answered. And after that from the results we obtained, we move to 4 different corners of the classroom. I was in one corner with like... One more friend only.

Not sure if you've heard about the test but so basically the 4 corners represent:
- Easygoing informal
- Easygoing formal
- Assertive informal
- Assertive formal

Four groups of people. Four different personalities. And well different groups of people work well/not well with certain kind of people. Well guess where do I belong? Apparently I'm in the easygoing informal people. So I'm someone who's easygoing, go with the flow, submissive, cheerful and happy. And I work well with the same group of people or the assertive people - because at the end of the day I will most probably end up submitting to them.

Well back then I told myself what's so special about the test... It's just a personality test... I'm not going to believe it... Tralala life is good. But hey at the end of the 5th semester, everything that I know from this test makes sense. I look around me, I think back of the groups I've met and the people I came across with, then I realised why I clashed with some people, why I work well with some people, why some people work well with other people and so on and so forth.

As much easygoing as I can be, if something is against my will, I will definitely say no. I would say I'm a quiet kind of guy. If something is against me I'll keep quiet or find alternative ways to rebut back to that person. But I won't go in an outburst to say @#$@%#$( and then we'll end up fighting or something like that. I guess I treasure our friendship/relationship more than my ego.

Okay and I'm not being a prejudice here but I realised a trend of some people - those in the "higher" grounds, if you know what I mean. They have more peaks than curbs (A vs C). Somehow most of the assertive formal people that I've met are people who are on those higher grounds. And then the rest is just a mix. And in fact to be honest, I've never met someone who's smart and is easygoing. Really no offense though! That's just how I feel.

It's rather scary to know what people would do for marks, and I even heard stories, how cunning and sly they would do to get to the top. I thought all these only happen in TV but hey no, it's happening in front of my eyes heh. But at the same time, I'm not surprised.

Then there are the different behaviors and personalities that I come across. How some people behave on social media is really different on how they behave in reality. Or sometimes, their social behavior reflect their personalities - or their past. I guess I am slowly picking up the art of reading people's mind and their behaviors. To why they act in a certain way. I'm not a certified psychologist so my thoughts may not be a 100% accurate. But well, somehow they are explainable.

And last but not least, the friends.

Since the beginning of poly, or even life. I don't know why but I'm not a clique person. I'm not someone who will revolve my life around a group of people. Where we'll eat together, study together, share life together and so on. I deem myself more of a floater. I talk to people I wanna talk with, study with people who want to study with me, and so on. I do have a couple of good friends who stayed by my side for these three years, and I'm thankful for them. And I even have a really close friend who's really literally been together with me from beginning to end.

Looking back, I do most things alone. I would drag myself to school to study alone. If I have to eat alone I will. If I have to do this alone I will. I'm glad I don't have to rely on others. I don't have to NEED a clique to be with, and in fact I don't wish to. I'm a floater and everyone can be my friend and yeah. Once again I suppose I treasure my relationship more than my ego. I would rather keep quiet than hate. Why's there a need to hate anyway?

With the drama I'm having in my class, I choose not to take sides. I still talk to people of both sides. And I keep quiet cause I know my words won't get anywhere anyway. But nevertheless, yes, I guess one of the greatest achievement I "unlocked" is that I have no cliques in poly. And I'm happy with that! Means I'm being myself I suppose? :)

Well so yeah. Apart from all the wonderful science knowledge I obtained. I also learnt a great lesson about people in poly from the things I went through. The people I work with, the people I met, the people I come across with, the politics, the drama, the events that took place. Basically the three eventful years in poly have made me learnt a lot about people. How people behave, why people behave in a certain way, why some people can't work together and why some are like cookies and cream. Definitely, a lesson worth learning!

Oh well, au voir poly. Thanks for teaching me about many things apart from science ;)

Homesick - Kings of Convenience

I find listening to songs I love, then typing out the lyrics as the song plays on really therapeutic.
So here it is. This is Homesick by Kings of Convenience.

Homesick by Kings of Convenience

I lose some sales and my boss won't be happy
But I can't stop listening to the sound
Of two soft voices, blended in perfection
From the reels of this record that I found

Everyday there's a boy in the mirror
Asking me what are you doing here
Finding all my previous motives
Growing increasingly unclear

I travelled and I burned all the bridges
I believe as soon as I hit land
All the other options held before me
Withered in the light of my plan

So I lose some sales and my boss won't be happy
But there's only one thing on my mind
Searching boxes underneath the counter
On a chance that on the tape I found

A song for
Someone who needs somewhere
To long for

Homesick
Cause I no longer know
Where home is

I can foresee myself in the future. Listening to this song again and crying my heart out. It's really a good song, and somehow it speaks to me. It tells me the story that I'm currently now in. I will miss this sunny island. When I'm home, I'll get homesick of my second home too.