Today is such an awesome day. Outside my window is the blue skies. So cloudless, just an endless stretch of blue with well patches of thin, fine, translucent clouds. Or precipitates. It's been such a long time since I see it. Somehow the past few weeks have been pretty much cloudy. Today is just different and I'm totally loving the weather right now. Lovely.
I just go back home, and I went for the temple this morning. It's the usual morning service, where we chanted. I went for the Puja as well. Which is totally something new for me. Never did it before, and it's very interesting. Weirdly it's my wish to come to the temple today. For the whole week I've been planning, I've been wanting, wishing and just have the urge to go there. And I've decided to go to the temple every Sunday. I love chanting, It gave me a peace of mind.
I'm not a strong Buddhist that follows a certain tradition or practice. To think of it, the last time I went to that temple was a year plus ago. Pretty long right? But I am a Buddhist and will always be one. I love the simplicity of its teachings and the philosophy behind the stories. After all I feel that Buddhism is a philosophy. And less of a religion. And I guess it's not entirely wrong to believe in the teaching more that the practice. Anyway I do still practice some of them. But that's when I'm back in my hometown with my mum haha. Going to the temple etc.
I just love the simplicity of Buddhism. Yes.
Today was a great day of course. I felt happy somehow today. Perhaps it's the weather. The fact that I fulfilled my wish of going to the temple. And perhaps, just a wave of endorphins rushing. Whatever it is, I'm happy. Happiness is never easy to create for one self. We don't find happiness I feel. We create it for ourselves and for others.
While having lunch today, I came up with something. Related about simplicity and happiness. It's kind of an accidental find. Something... I came across with, inspired by my simple lunch. Just a normal lunch of rice meat and veggies. And sambal not to forget.
Sometimes the reason why we're unhappy is not because we don't get what we want. But more of because we kept on searching for the things that make us happy, when the simple things are around us to make us happy. We kept on searching for perfections. Things that our mind make us believe would make us happy. But in reality, they may not necessarily do so. And in reality, there are other things that could make us happy. Simply. They are around us, but we ignore them. Our minds ignore them. The quest of finding happiness is never easy, equipped with our nature especially. Sometimes all we need to do is to stop searching. Look around us, and find it. Create it.
Wow! Hahaha.
Well yeah, I was just thinking of the lunch that I was eating. It was a simple lunch really. I even ate it at a hawker centre, alone. It may not be a lavished meal. Something expensive (it was rather ex though T_T) or grandeur. But yet it has the ability to make me full, to keep me satisfied and to make me happy. So then I think to myself, why would I want a lavished meal eh?
I just feel... Well I'm sure we all want to be happy in life. But what's life without the down moments? It will just be too perfect for it to be imperfect. And life is imperfect. I mean... If you want to be happy, start with yourself. Because genuine happiness comes within you. What you get from outside are not always genuine all the time.
Like me, getting a new notebook makes me happy. For a while.
Hahaha
