Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Dear you

Dear you

Hello there. How are you doing? I'm sure you've been great from all these times. I'm sure you do.

I just wanna ask you. Don't you know that everybody loves you?
When you don't realise it, you simply don't feel it.
But I just wanna tell you, everyone loves you!

And maybe, am I one of them? Nobody knows.

Thank you :)

Monday, April 5, 2010

Dilemma

You know it well, that music has been a passion of mine since I was a young kid. I love music, I love listening to music, I love playing music, especially classical music. I would say that I am weird, because when other boys love rock/pop, I have a different liking to classical music.

But it is your difference that makes you a different and unique person.

So well I am now caught in a dilemma, whether to let or don't let go my band life as I enter my polytechnic life. It is truly a different way and outcome I have because I have always think that I will join band in polytechnic, even after I have left my secondary school. I did not imagine that I am thinking of this solution. Of this other option of leaving band.

And I totally don't understand why I made this option. Firstly, my main reason to whether I should not join band is because of my fear of not abling to cope with my studies. Well Biomedical is not something easy as I have heard. So that's my main concern.

Another concern is my talent and skill. Even though I can play the clarinet and/or the flute, I fear that I will be one of the lousiest player in the band. Well this is what makes me wonder the most. Why do I have this feeling when my main purpose of joining the band is to enjoy music? To pursue my passion and dream? Why do I even have to feel inferior to others?

I guess the word to describe this is politics.

Oh well I'm in a dilemma for these few days and it's kind of screwing my mood. I'm thinking and thinking and thinking to the solution of this dilemma. And hope that one day I will find the solution to this dilemma. I hope I can get a solid answer from myself.

Anyway this is my first post with my own laptop in this blog. Okay that was random. See ya.

Music is a huge part of my life. I have to think this with a huge amount of consideration.